You know, its hard seeing your family and friends cope with a life that they dont really want. Its hard to watch them convince themselves that it really is the life they want. Someone I used to be very close to has drifted off from my life and that is a change that I dont want. First of all I dont like change. I really dont, it can totally take you out of your comfort zone in life and throw you into a place you really dont want to be. For me time seems to go by really fast this time of year with all the holidays and rushing around. So when a change happens now, it happens very quickly and you cant do much to stop it. I just I could have. You know, I love this time of year, the weather, the holidays, everything is just fun. But at the same time I hate this time of year. It goes by to quickly and all you end up doing is hoping for it to slow down and not enjoying yourself wile its hear. There is so much I wanted to do this past fall and present winter. Write, read, camp, hike, the list can go on and on. Yet I didnt get to do any of it because my life seems to go double time when this time of the year rolls around. I just wish life would give me a chance to stop and smell the roses without me having to catch up on everything when I'm done. Well thats all for now, I'll have a regular daily post to go up later.